Suffering Loss by Moillah Ndoro
My journey in this world as a single mum/waiting lady, has been very painful I must admit. I have been a Waiting Lady for almost 24 years as I am penning this publication. Here I will explain my heartbreak and the aftermath of divorcing at the age of 27. My marriage lasted only 3 years and a few months. Why me God? Is a very common question paused by anyone facing a traumatic situation in life.
In this world people are always people they will disappoint you, and life situations will disappoint you. It is crucial how you handle disappointments? Something I didn’t expect happened, but I had no other option except to believe in the power of God’s Mighty and His faithfulness to walk with me so I could withstand the test of time. The Word of God says, “Put on the whole armour of God that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day and having to stand against the wiles of the devil”. It is very unfortunate that many times the people you would think they will stand by you in difficult times are wrong. Rejection brings mixed feelings such as shame, humiliation, anger, bitterness, and frustration and all these evil spirits had a grip on me for many years BUT God was with me. The Bible says in the Book of [Psalm 46:1] that, “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble”.
In this world people have and are suffering loss due to different reasons in life whether it is due to bereavement, divorce, or sickness or disease. As for myself, I suffered loss due to divorce. I struggled with severe depression for years BUT the LORD delivered me completely. For many years I was battling against the spirit of rejection, and I can honestly say it is traumatic but remember my beloved sisters, the Bible says in the Book of Isaiah chap 53, that, Jesus Christ was a man of sorrow, despised, rejected, and acquainted with grief and was never esteemed, He was wounded and bruised for the sins He did not commit. The battles in life begins when you decide to love Jesus. If they have persecuted Him, they will surely persecute you. I felt like I was that woman described in [Isaiah 54:6], this scripture become reality in my life “…. a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit and a wife of youth, when thou wast refused ....”.
When it first happened, the world became so horrible, everything about life was meaningless and ugly to me, the fear of the unknown gripped me, and it was a deep torture people of God. Even though the world is full of divorced and deserted women everywhere but when it happened to me I felt like I was the first and the only one in that predicament. In that catastrophic situation with tears rolling down my cheeks every single day for many years, but, I made a decision to cry out, to pour out to the LORD not men. I cried drums of tears for many years failing to understand the why part of it.
Above all I had two things that traumatised me the most:- 1) Bringing up my daughter being a single mum in a foreign land. 2) I was scared to face the world on my own fearing the temptation of the flesh. I believed in hope even up to now as I am typing this publication, I still believe and hope for God’s promises to come to pass over my life. I purposed in my heart that I, will hold on to the promises of God believing in my heart that God is forever faithful nor matter how long it takes. I used to and I still stand in front of a mirror and utter these words, ‘I don’t mind waiting, for another chance to marry again as long as it is for your glory’.
There are so many single mothers in this world whose husbands walked away refusing to take financial responsibility of their children like what I experienced myself but, what people must take into consideration is that strength does not walk away instead it toils through circumstances and takes responsibility accordingly. I worked hard like any other single mother trying to play the role of being a mum and dad at the same time for the betterment of my daughter and God truly blessed the fruit of my womb beyond measure. The Bible says in the Book of Galatians 6:7-9, “Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap…….”
Many single women sacrifice their time and personal pleasures to provide for their children like I did, I can testify my sisters trust me it’s not in VAIN, just be still and know that God is not a men. On the other hand the devil never gave up tormenting me, throwing lots of temptations on my path but it was and is the Word of God that made me to be able to escape evil to this day. It is very crucial my sisters to ‘love God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind’, in order to escape that wicked demon fornication. You can do it, only if you purpose it in your heart.
What determines the level of your resilience as a Waiting Lady is to know what you want in life and knowing who you are in Christ Jesus. Say No to fornication, it is not an answer to loneliness or happiness!
To BeContinued………!
